The reason I have been thinking about it is that I have come to realize how very addicted to food I am. I tried to do a ten day juice fast. I was pleased that I made it seven days. But I was horrified by how my brain became my own worst enemy. I was constantly trying to figure out how I could cheat. How I could sneak a bite of food here or there. How I could wait until my older son was not around so he wouldn’t stop me (because he was my greatest champion in keeping me on the straight and narrow.)
It finally hit me…Omigosh! What are you doing?!
I recognized the behaviors I was presenting and I equated them with behaviors of other addicts. Being sneaky and obsessed with trying to consume whatever is one’s personal vice. Living in denial and having seriously no control over the urges you are experiencing.
Wikipedia defines addiction like this. (click on the “this”)
I particularly paid attention to the part that says, “Classic hallmarks of addiction include impaired control over substances or behavior, preoccupation with substance or behavior, continued use despite consequences, and denial.”
This is me. And I know my trigger food. It’s cheddar cheese. I have to cut myself off from it entirely because I have no self-control when it comes to cheddar cheese. From what I am reading, it apparently gives my brain’s “reward center” a real boost and fulfills emotional and psychological needs, simply from eating the food.
How did this happen? When did this happen?
I came across this Huffington Post article “Food Addiction is Real“. Good read, you should check it out.
Food addiction is a real thing. If I don’t “get clean”, it will kill me in time.
I have a new appreciation for the struggle people go through who are addicted to drugs of any kind. Illegal, nicotine, alcohol, or whatever. I urge you…if you are struggling to break free from an addiction which is ruling your life….Do It. Take whatever steps necessary, and break yourself free from it. Alcohol? Cigarettes? Legal or Illegal Drugs? Internet? Pornography? Gaming? Gambling? This is by no means a comprehensive list.
Get Free. Love yourself more than you love your prison.
My prison is food. Compulsive overeating and addiction to certain foods is where I am struggling. I will overcome this because a lot of people are counting on me. I need to be around for a long, long time. And I need to FEEL GOOD while I’m here.
Where are you struggling?
Be honest with yourself.
Take care of yourself.
Imagine how amazing you will feel when you are free from that which controls you.
Learn to control your own mind…..don’t let it control you.
And if you can’t Win on your own? Get Help.
You. Are. Worth. It.